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HOPES. & dreams…

Hopes and dreams. two sides of the same coin. so close, but so far away.

I am speaking of the word hopes in the sense of your desires that you wish to achieve someday. Your hopes are usually seen in your mind’s eye as as desired experience that you don’t currently have… it is seen as a future event, one that may or may not happen.

When I use the word dreams, I am not speaking of the mind travel and events that happen while we are sleeping; I am referring to the vision you hold of experiencing one or more of your desires. In the dreams of your desires, you are an active participant and you are seeing yourself in the moment of experiencing such events. In dreams of this manner, you are imagining yourself in the experience, in a present moment state, to the point of feeling it (as best you can imagine) as if you are actually experiencing it. While envisioning your dreams your heart will pulse at a different pace, your brain will begin to give signals as if you were actually experiencing the event, you are immersed within the experience in that moment.

Hopes are always based on a future event.

Dreams are envisioned in present moment.

 

Hopes are an unfulfilled desire. 

 

Dreams are seeing/feeling yourself experiencing that which is desired.

Now, don’t get me wrong… we all need hope. The point is, don’t get stuck in the hope stage. Hope helps you realize what it is that you desire, then you need to take it up a notch and begin to dream about achieving those desired experiences as if you already have them in your present moment.

There is a great shift that happens within this.

Since we create our experiences by the energy/thoughts/feelings that we send out, then take a look at the energy that is being sent out with these two concepts.

Hope is sending out: “I don’t have something and I hope I will someday.”

Dreams are sending out: “I am experiencing my chosen desires.”

Since hope is based in future events, it keeps sending out an energy that will keep these events in the future.

Since dreaming/imagining is based in the present tense, it sends out an energy that will allow you to experience the desire in your present moment.

If your hopes and dreams keep eluding you, you may want to put more energy into the dream part.

Begin to imagine your greatest desires as if you are already experiencing them. With this, you will have a greater chance of experiencing them.

Your hopes and dreams are two sides of the same coin; they work together to help you achieve your desires. Don’t get stuck on the HOPE side, be sure to remember to flip the coin and start to DREAM, imagining yourself in the moment of your desired experiences.

Focus on your dreams. see yourself living them. feel yourself living them.

SEE it, FEEL it… BE it.

“Everything is energy and thats all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.”

Albert Einstein

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Increasing your love quotient.

Increasing your love quotient with your partner.

 

Mabo and I both have a love for Country & Western dancing. We both have noticed that when we go dancing, it renews our love for each other. There is something magical about being in each others arms and looking into each others eyes while dancing around in a big circle upon that dance floor. The feeling of increased love is palpable – we both feel it and comment about it each time as it washes over us. I am so thankful that I have a partner who loves to dance as much (or more) than I do! This is something that we can do together that happens to increase our love quotient. We have both noticed that the weeks when we don’t have an opportunity to dance and look each other in the eyes, our lives seem to just be moving along, no fluctuations or increases in feelings of love, just living our daily lives. Though, the weeks when we get to dance, we have an added amount of happiness and feelings of renewed love.

 

I have given this much thought and I think the following story has a lot to do with explaining why this happens.

I went to a workshop many years ago, which had nothing specifically to do with couples therapy, in fact it wasn’t for couples at all, and the instructor split us up into two groups and had us line up across from each, nearly toe to toe with the person directly (and randomly, I might add) in front of us. Our goal in this exercise was to look the other person in the eyes and face. We were to neither expect anything from the other person, nor judge them in any way. We were not told what to expect from this exercise and I am still not sure if my results were what was supposed to happen.  This exercise lasted only about 5-10 minutes, I cannot remember…but it was amazing!

 

I happened to be paired up with a gentleman about my age, maybe a few years younger. He was not particularly handsome, nor was he particularly not handsome (I guess I didn’t follow instructions too well in the judgment department, lol); all I remember is that I was definitely NOT attracted to him. At first it was a bit uncomfortable to look someone, unabashedly and directly, in the eyes for a length of time. So, I would hold his stare as long as I could, then stop and look at his face. As we spent more time, there became a level of feeling that “this is OK to stare this person in the eyes”. So, we did just as we were instructed.

 

As the minutes went on I began to have a fondness for him. Then as more minutes passed (this is what makes me think it was 10 minutes, because it seemed like a long time) I found myself feeling love for him. I honestly didn’t find him attractive when we first started the exercise and I am not sure I found him physically attractive after the exercise, but I definitely began to love this person. And the love I was feeling had nothing to do with sex, I had a sense of ONEness with him – I just wanted to hug him.

 

Wow! The power of looking someone in the eyes for any length of time is AMAZING!  I guess it is true that “your eyes are a window to your soul”.

 

I would venture to take an educated guess that if you were to pick a time when you and your spouse or your loved one could spend 5 – 10 minutes to simply look each other in the eyes, no judgment or expectations (as best you can), you would increase your overall love quotient. Or why not go dancing… or something that allows you to look deeply into the eyes of your loved one…it has worked for us!

peace, love, jimmy

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The journey to loving myself: Part 3 – My Dark Period

Please begin with: Part 1 ;  Part 2

“I think it is time we begin to see other people…”

My first reaction was, “Do we have to do this now… when my business is collapsing beneath my feet?” I cannot remember if I said this out loud or just in my head, but I said it nonetheless. The time was in the early months of 2008, soon after the big crash of the US economy.

Even though the 14.5 year relationship that was ending was probably about 4.5 years past its expiration date, it was the only thing that was consistent in my life. Less than three years prior, in 2005, I walked away from a company I created and built to a moderate success.

In 2005, exactly 5.5 weeks after walking awayI put together a new company and started all over from scratch. Needless to say, these were tumultuous years, but nothing like what I was about to experience beginning in those early months of 2008. The ground beneath my feet was shifting so quickly I am not sure that I was actually standing; and it didn’t stop shifting for another four years.

My friends have called this my Dark Period. Those four years were the most difficult of my entire life. Though, I am now very thankful for those years, because if things hadn’t happened as they did I would not have found the peace and true happiness that I am now experiencing. For me, it was all worth it.

In January of 2008 as the economy collapsed, so followed my business. Somehow, without any funding, I kept the company afloat with sheer determination and the will to not give up. I remember saying, “They will have to pry this company out of my dead bleeding hands…” and they nearly did.

By mid 2008, when it was obvious that we were not recovering from the crash, I had to begin laying off my staff one by one until it was just me and one other person. By 2009 we had moved out of our beautiful new offices and into my home office. That one employee I had left, Maggie, ran my office until the end of 2010 and worked several months with neither a paycheck nor a complaint. I had stopped paying myself back in the early months of 2008. From 2009-2010 I made, packed and shipped all of my candles by myself (with occasional part-time help). The warehouse I was forced to use as my production facility had no air-conditioning or proper ventilation. Temperatures inside would reach around 120 with all the wax melters running during the Texas summers. I was often working 6-7 days a week and not taking care of my health. My eating habits turned into (I’m now horrified to say this) what I could afford on the dollar menu at fast food restaurants. I was killing myself with my work load, the working conditions,  the stress of my mounting debt and my dollar menu diet. I don’t remember having much if any joy in my life…

Since I had stopped paying myself in 2008, I had no money left and no more room on credit cards by early 2010. Some of my greatest fears were coming true. I was so behind on my car payment that I began to park down the block so the repo men wouldn’t find it. I was also several months behind on the house mortgage and received a notice that if I didn’t make a payment that month, they were going to begin the foreclosure process. Adding to the pressure of this, I had been a rescuer of animals for over 15 years at that point and had a house and yard full of animals that depended upon me. They were my family. If I lost the house, there would have been no way for me to keep my family of animals together. I was on the verge of losing EVERYTHING.

By 2011 I was nearly dead; physically, emotionally and spiritually. In order to save the house and keep food for my dogs, I had to sell off many of my personal belongins, including my prized possessions, my Big Boy statues.

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Bye-bye BIG BOYS!

 In 2011 I received some reprieve when I licensed my candle brand to another company. This removed the daily stress of making and shipping candles off my plate, though it still left me with no income. I applied at every job I could think of, though no one seemed to want to hire someone who had been an entrepreneur for the past 20+ years. I literally was starving. Any money I could scrap up went into keeping the roof over my head, my car on the road and food for my animals. I had no spare money for anything.

I learned how to live on $5 a week from a friend. He told me about the real Mexican grocery stores, the ones where all the signs are in Spanish, and how they would always have some sort of (unidentifiable) meat on sale for $0.99 per pound. I would go there and buy $5 worth and live on it for a week. I would cook the hell out of it on my George Foreman Grill to kill anything that could possibly kill me. If I was lucky a friend would give me some barbecue sauce to make it, whatever it was, tolerable.  Yes, I am serious, I was that poor. The only time I saw a vegetable is when Maggie would invite me over to eat.

During this time I was rather lucky that my dogs had relatively good health and did not require much… if they had, I would not have been able to afford taking them to the vet. There were only a couple of events that happened where I had to turn my kitchen into a triage unit and emergency room. I saved one of my special needs puppies life with a chip clip when one of the other dogs ate 3/4’s of her IMG_0825IMG_0972ear off. That is a long

story, but she lived.  

Hippity Hop in the emergency room (my kithen) and her bi-level look afterwards.

I am usually a very social person, and by the spring of 2011 I had been living as a complete hermit for a few years. My dogs had heard all of my jokes and when they began to recite my punchlines back to me, in unison, I knew it was time to get out of the house and become social again – with humans. Who would have thought that a visit to The Round Up, a Country & Western Saloon and Dancehall, would change the course of my life forever?

To be continued. Part 4 (click here)

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thanks for reading!

Jimmy

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NO CARRY-ONS ALLOWED on THE PEACE TRAIN!

As I ran up to THE PEACE TRAIN, I noticed a door with my name above it! How exciting! This must be where I get on – “PEACE, HERE I COME!”

For some reason, when I attempted to step aboard through the doorway to my PEACE, I was stopped dead in my tracks.  As I stepped back to examine the door more closely, I noticed that the door frame to my peace was exactly the shape of my body… and placed upon that frame was a small sign that read,

NO CARRY-ONS ALLOWED. Leave your baggage at the door.

 

I have had great successes in life – going in both directions – up and down. And through it all, on the rides upward as well as the rides downward, I finally figured out that the secret to maintaining my peace came when I was able to let go. I have now learned to be quite masterful in maintaining my peace – even during some of my darkest moments.

I have come to know that, He who lives with the most peace wins!

Even when people were “taking” things away from me, things of great value to me, they did not take my peace when I chose to let those things go. I become happier because nothing was “taken” from me.

If you freely give it away, then nothing is actually taken from you. 

You only feel like a victim when you are trying to hold onto what was taken. You can choose to no longer be a victim of the crime if you choose to see yourself as letting it go and you no longer hold onto itit is gone, so let it go free. Even if it was rightfully yours, letting it go gives YOU peace. If you choose to become happier because of letting it go – you win.

“He who lives with the most peace wins!”

The key to maintaining your peace is LETTING GO, period. Letting go of things that no longer serve you has a magical effect upon your entire being.

Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. (sung to the tune of Let it Snow)

…and you will find your peace.

let it go let it go let it go

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a fish named FRED

A fish named Fred

There once was a fish named Fred who lived in the ocean.  Fred would often hide in the darkest underwater cave. When Fred was in that cave he would feel lonely and separate from all the other sea creatures in the ocean. When Fred was out swimming in the ocean he would notice all of the differences between him and all of the other creatures of the sea; by doing so he would feel even more separate… and alone. Even when Fred was in a school, surrounded by a multitude of other fish, he felt separate and alone.

What Fred didn’t realize was, it is impossible for him to be separate from the ocean, it is impossible for Fred to be separate from all the other creatures in the ocean. Fred and all the other creatures are all living in the same fish bowl. Every part of that ocean flows through each of these creatures. There is only a temporary perceived “separation” with all that is in that ocean.

And one day the fish named Fred became lunch for a larger fish named Bill. It was then that the fish named Fred finally realized his oneness with all there is in that ocean. In that moment Fred wished he had figured this out earlier… so he would not have felt all alone for all of those years. He realized that through his perceived separateness, he could learn about his true oneness with all things… though, in this case he was a little too late.

Hello Fred… and wake up before its too late.

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good VIBRATIONS

If you have a row of tuning forks, each of different notes, all lined up together and you were to introduce a duplicate of one of these forks and activate it with a thud of your hand – you would soon notice that one of the forks that is lined up will also begin to vibrate and sing…and all of the others will sit still and silent. When you look more closely, you will notice that the one that is now singing along will be of the same note to which your hand activated fork is tuned; they are both tuned to the same frequency.

 

Matching frequencies will find each other and begin to resonate with each other.

 

Everything we can see and not see in this universe is a vibration… waves of energy. Everything from the colors we see with our eyes, the thoughts we think with our mind, the feelings we feel within our hearts, the planet beneath our feet, the sun up in the sky to the stars throughout our universe – all of these are waves of vibratory energy.

 

Our experiences in this life are all based upon vibrations and frequencies; and our thoughts and feelings are the most powerful frequencies we have in creating our life experiences. Your life experience will only be that of which you are vibrating, or in this case thinking and feeling…and can be nothing other.

 

You cannot make the other forks in the line sing along with your frequency if they don’t match with your frequency.

 

If you are not pleased with the life frequency you are experiencing, then change your frequency to that of the life experience you wish to experience. Once you begin to vibrate at a different rate, you will automatically draw to you the matching vibrations, or frequencies…or life experiences. Use the vibrations you have at your disposal – your thoughts and your feelings and begin to think and feel your way to a new frequency.

 

And the wonderful part of all of this – only you can choose which frequency you wish to vibrate. You have your power of choice. Please use it mindfully.

 

“Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.” – Albert Einstein

 

“Imagination is everything; it is the preview of life’s coming attractions.” – Albert Einstein

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My Great Awakening!

Hello my name is Jimmy Belasco. This section gives details about my spiritual journey. I detail the events that lead me to realize my purpose in life is to inspire people to re-connect with their love and their peace.

WARNING: This section is NOT for the spiritually closed minded.

I came to this “knowing” on October 17, 1997 during an experience I call “My Great Awakening!” (I go into the details below) I call it that because it was as if prior to this experience I was in a coma – and after it, my eyes were wide open! During the events of My Great Awakening I realized that I would someday play the role of the teacher. And because the greatest teachers in my life taught me from the experiences of their own lives – I knew I wanted to teach from experiential knowledge – from my own life’s experiences. It was then that I acknowledged the fact that I must first accept my role as the student.

Little did I know at the time that I had just enrolled myself into an advanced level program at The University of Kick the Living @#%& Out of You and See if You Can Get Back Up. Apparently, they had a campus right here in Dallas Texas – and I had signed up to receive a PhD!

Though I have had some great successes in my life, I have also had some, lets say, GREAT NON-SUCCESSES. I have lost everything – several times. I watched 3 of my businesses (my babies, as I used to refer to them), some of which were very successful, and a 14.5 year relationship (among other things) get washed away in the storms of my life. Because of what I had learned up to those points in my life, I did NOT experience the panic, the devastation nor the suffering that usually accompany such life events. I spell all of this out in the section: THE ART OF LOSING EVERYTHING.

It is from my greatest loses – that I received my greatest gains. Isn’t it funny how that works? And it is during these great times of loss that I was the student and I acquired the knowledge I would need some day to be the teacher.

When the student is ready, the teacher appears. When the teacher is ready, the student appears.

My intent and desire is that there is something I learned upon my journey that might help someone or a bunch of someones upon their journeys.

If you have a weak stomach for matters of a spiritual nature, I would suggest that you skip this next part. If this is the case, there is so much you can learn from other aspects of my teachings, maybe you should start with: The Art of Losing Everything or watch some of my videos on JimmyTV.

peace… love, jimmy

My GREAT AWAKENING!

I grew up as a preacher’s kid. The church where my dad preached was so conservative, we thought the Baptists were LIBERALS! I have often described our church to others as this: “Head on down to the Southern Baptists and hang a HARD RIGHT…. and you’re ALMOST THERE!” And even though my dad wasn’t very narrow minded spiritually, I was surrounded by people in the church who were.

I cannot say that I ever had a true, moving spiritual moment in my life up to the date of October 17, 1997. In fact, in the years leading up to that date I was feeling as disconnected and as far away from anything spiritual as possible.

I had always believed that there was a GOD. I had seen the beauty in life and knew there had to be some kind of mastermind behind all of this. Though the GOD that was taught to me in Sunday School, just didn’t seem to resound within me. I often heard responses to my questions from my teachers, “God doesn’t work that way.” or “God wouldn’t do that!” or “God would never let that happen.” And I never understood why we had to go to church to be with God. Or why we had to have the church to find God. I even remember a “wise old elder” in the church say, “We are separate from God…and if we work real hard, God may accept us into HIS fold.” I remember being told several times what God was NOT or wouldn’t do.

But, but…what about the part where God says, “I am ALL THINGS” and “ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE” and the whole, “ALPHA and OMEGA – BEGINNING and THE END” part? I remember my little mind being perplexed.

It seemed to me that there was a whole lot that God was supposedly NOT able to do – according to my Sunday School teachers. Because there was such a disconnect with how I envisioned God and what my church was telling me, I think I became numb to it all. I saw no spirit, I saw no joy in going to church at a very young age. Though I played the part and participated up through most of my college years… and a few beyond. By my mid twenties, I lost all interest in going to church.

At 33 years old, I found myself completely lost. I still had a belief in the concept of a Supreme Intelligence, a Master Creator of ALL THINGS, but I had no connection to this, whatever it was, God-thing…other than I was still alive and breathing, so I must be connected in some basic way with it’s energy.

One afternoon, I am guessing the timing on this was somewhere around September of 1997, in a voice filled with frustration, I said out loud, “OK, God, or whatever you are, I want a connection!” I had heard of people having some kind of connection, having experiences that connected them with this “ALL THERE IS” thing that most people call God…but what about me? “I am ready for MY CONNECTION!” I proclaimed!

Several weeks passed by, in fact I had completely forgotten about my proclamation, life was my usual disconnected life. I had made an appointment for a massage with Jason, the husband of one of my dearest friends. My appointment was set for Friday afternoon,  October 17.

When I showed up for my appointment, I told him that I didn’t like to talk during the massage and that I was going to try and meditate. The true story was that I had body issues since I was in my late teens and I felt a bit awkward being naked-ish in front of a good friend. And the funny part is that I had never meditated before in my life up to that point. I simply wanted to be left alone so I could focus upon my body and the massage and not have to suffer through “small talk”.

So when he left the room, I stripped down and got comfortable on the table with the blanket over me.  I started to focus upon the word, ONE. I had read somewhere that if you focus upon a word and focus upon your breath, it will help you meditate. So I took a few deep long breaths and kept repeating, with the voice in my head, one, one, one, one, one… It seemed like quite some time before he entered, so I was quite relaxed by then. I heard him preparing, though my focus was deep within my body. Boy, this stuff works! [From this point on in the story, my thoughts will be italicized. ]

one…one…one…one…one…one…one…

Deeper and deeper I went, though I was still conscious. When his hands finally touched my shoulders, I felt a shift in the energy – something was different. and I noticed the voice in my head was no longer saying, one, instead it was saying, TRUST…TRUST…TRUST…

Each movement of his hands were in rhythm with this new word that began repeating in my head, TRUST…TRUST…TRUST… 

But wait a minute, he is not saying that and I am not saying that…and the voice is still my voice in my head…but WHO is controlling that thought?

I almost lost my focus, thought the words were calming me and I felt warm and safe. The voice that is inside my head, the voice that talks to myself was talking to me, though I was NOT controlling the words!

LET GO…TRUST…EXPERIENCE…

(if you haven’t noticed by now, the words that are italicized and in CAPS are the words that were coming to me, not of my control…and the lower case italicized are MY thoughts)

holy crap! what is going on here! I am not sure I believe in this stuff…

TRUST… LET GO…EXPERIENCE…

So, I did! I am not sure what was going on with me, though I felt safe and I had this “knowing” that I was supposed to trust what was happening, let go and experience it. I then completely let go with full trust.

When I was ready, and it all seemed to be synchronized, Jason moved to my chest. All of a sudden he hit a spot and in my mind’s eye I saw bluish white light and began to hear the words, HEAL…HEAL…HEAL…

Now, here is where it gets good and might seem a bit unbelievable to some of you.  And trust me, it seemed a bit unbelievable to me too – it was hard to wrap my brain around what was happening – but it was happening to me, so I could not deny it!

As Jason hit a particular spot on my chest, I was off the table and thrust into a place that seemed to go on horizontally in all directions. There was a definite floor and ceiling wherever I was. I was not my body though…I was like a cloud version of me, like a fluffy ball of energy. In front of me was a huge scary fear. This was a fear I was holding in that particular place in my chest; for some reason I seemed to know this. This fear was BIG and I felt like running away – and almost did!

EXPERIENCE…MOVE TOWARD THE FEAR…TRUST…

I took a deep breath and moved toward the fear. Let me add a side note here. At the time I could tell you what the fear was; this is something like a dream in the fact that I could not remember exactly what the fear was shortly after the experience, though it was HUMONGOUS! I am pretty sure I figured out that this first fear was THE FEAR OF DEATH. Anyway, back to the story.

I took a deep breath and began to move toward this big scary fear… and when my energy began to enter into this fear, I was able to see inside of it, see if for what it was, which was nothing. Then all of a sudden this GARGANTUAN FEAR evaporated in front of my cloud eyes, it was like a mist that just went away!

And before I knew what was happening, I was pulled upward out of that horizontal plane and into an upwardly spinning spiral of pure love! It felt as if I were in a tornado, though the feeling was complete JOY and HAPPINESS and SAFENESS and LOVE – a form of SPIRITUAL ECSTASY!

Here is the crazy part, at the open end of this spiral was PURE WHITE LIGHT! It was if I were getting to glance into “The OTHER SIDE”! I was in complete AWE! I was getting to see into the OTHER SIDE! And I instinctively knew that it wasn’t my time to go there yet, but I KNEW someday I would, so all was good. I was given the opportunity to look into that beautiful bright white light… and feel the love! I was sobbing tears of happiness!!!

And…BOOM! I was back on the massage table, back in my body with tears rolling down my face and nearly out of breath from breathing so hard!

oh my gosh! what the heck just happened?! and before I could ask too many questions…

TRUST… LET GO… EXPERIENCE…

And Jason kept moving to the next section in my chest. I see the flash of bluish white light, hear the word HEAL, as I am whisked away to that horizontal plane staring down another one of my big ugly fears. This time, though, I know the drill and I know the PAY OFF! I quickly moved my cloud into that fear, and just as it began to mingle with my energy I could see it for what it was and POOF, it was GONE! WHOOSH, I was sucked up into the vortex of love and reveled in the energy once again!

I will do whatever it takes to feel this energy again!

BOOM! Back on the table. This scenario happened several more times as Jason moved around to different parts of my body in which I was holding fears. I do remember that the intensity of the joyous part was always far greater than the size of the fear, though the greater the fear was, the greater the joy was when the fear was finally released.

The amazing thing to me is that Jason’s movement, the music playing in the background, the involuntary sayings and the experiences were all synchronized and melodic like a beautiful orchestra. Was Jason aware of what was going on? What did he think of me crying and sobbing on his massage table? I don’t know and didn’t care! This was the most moving experience of my life!!!

When we were done, I asked him if he knew what was happening to me or if he know that he was orchestrating this symphony within me…and he didn’t. He said he has seen some odd things happen during massages and he just continues on and lets the person experience or release what they need. He then asked me what it was that I experienced. I told him that I would sit down with him later, but “…for some reason, I need to leave now.”

I felt as if I was still in a cloud of energy, as if I was being guided. I got into my car and quickly realized that my driving was somewhat involuntary, just like my inner voice was…I was being guided to drive somewhere. So, I held onto the wheel and became a silent observer. I watched as I drove this way, then turned here, almost like my body was on auto pilot – I was even observing the speed limit, which rarely happened. Before I realized it, I was driving down a street and pulled directly into a head-in parking spot in front of a book store.

I need to go in there.

I got out of my car and as I touched the handle of the book store door…

oh, there is a book in here and I will know it when I see it.

At this point, I was very interested in where this journey was leading me…and I had stopped asking questions a while back. Amazed? Yes. Remember from my upbringing, we DEFINITELY did NOT believe is THIS SORT OF THING! But I could not deny, this was HAPPENING TO ME!

I walked through the store as if I knew exactly where I was going. Through the isles of book shelves I walked. I ended up in front of a book shelf.

Ah, the book is on this shelf…and I will know it when I see it.

At that point, I remember my logical brain taking over. I took my eyes to the top shelf and started at the left and moved to the right.

not on that shelf.

I then dropped my vision down to the second from top shelf and scanned it from left to right.

not on that shelf.

Then I dropped down to the third from top shelf and there right directly in front of me was a book that seemed to be glowing. Yes folks, glowing! Again, I stopped asking questions.

Let me preface this next part by saying that I had never heard of this book prior to seeing it that day on the shelf.

I leaned over and picked up the very last copy of the glowing book and read the title. Conversations With God – An uncommon dialog. Book 1. As I turned over the book, it was written as God talking, in first person, just like in the Bible. The voice in my head, the one that still sounded like my usual voice in my head, began to speak the words as if that voice had written them. My eyes flooded with tears, I could barely make my way through the inscription.

As I turned to head to the register, one of the bookstore staff members saw the book in my hand and said, “Oh, you’re gonna like that book!”

Oh, you have NO IDEA! 

I sat at a coffee shop across the street and began reading the book, feverishly! I had a pen and began to underline and circle all of the important parts, until I realized that I had marked every sentence for several pages…then I gave up the pen. This book was basically covering everything I had just LEARNED and EXPERIENCED on that massage table! It talked about FEAR and LOVE… then it went on to explain a version of God that I had always hoped in my heart was how God was. My heart leaped with JOY! The funny part is that it didn’t negate anything I believed from my church days, it only expanded upon those ideas. It took the limits off of GOD and what GOD is. In my upbringing, it seemed that GOD had to fit in this box, and if you didn’t believe in the box – you were wrong.

This book opened me up and expanded my life in so many ways! And I am not sure that I would have ever read this book if I hadn’t found it in the manner in which I found it. And even if I would have been given this book and read it, without this awakening experience, I would have never read it with as much an open mind as I had.

This is how I, as a child, had always envisioned God…until I was told differently. As I grew, this is basically how I wished God would be, how God would work, how this universe works. This book basically helped me know that I wasn’t crazy all of those years when I questioned what I was being taught. It all made sense…again!

I will go ahead and tell you this last part of the Great Awakening Experience, you probably already think I am crazy, I might as well put some frosting on the top!

That first evening when I was sitting down with a notepad and reading the book, I came across the word REINCARNATION. 

Hold up! Stop! I don’t believe in reincarnat… and I stopped myself in mid thought. I stopped my auto-response. I said to myself, LET GO… TRUST…

As soon as I began to think those words, it was if a bolt of electricity came through the top of my head and went through my body. In my mind I was seeing floor after floor filled with books, books of knowledge, being downloaded (for the lack of a better word) one after the other into my body. I was grasping bits of knowledge and my brain was trying hold onto it.

LET IT GO…TRUST…IT IS ALWAYS WITH YOU…

And so I did, I completely let go and allowed this to happen. It seemed to last minutes. Hundreds of floors, filled with thousands and thousands of books, each being given to me. If one of my roommates at the time would have walked in on me, I am sure it would have looked like I was having a seizure or a stroke.

As soon as it was over, I instantly KNEW that reincarnation was a truth. It made perfect sense to me. We are energy and energy never dies, it only takes on new forms. The energy that is me, existed before I was born into this world and will exist when I leave. Why wouldn’t we have more than one life to work through things. Think of how sad it would be if your only shot at life had been a child who died at birth, or as a toddler or a teenager. Why couldn’t we have multiple lives to work through all that we can work through. Our Western culture is one of the few that don’t believe in reincarnation. Reincarnation makes perfect sense to me. Why would we put limits upon that which is ALL THINGS. Why would we say that certain things are NOT POSSIBLE?

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

THE ALPHA, THE OMEGA, THE BEGINNING, THE END.

One of the greatest lessons I have taken from this experience is the releasing of fears. Facing your fears, seeing them truly for what they are (which is basically a false expectation of an event that hasn’t come true yet) and letting them go to experience the love and joy that was being held within that fear…

This is why I speak so much about Letting Go… Our fears are here to teach us greater parts of ourselves…and that greater part of yourself is LOVE.

There are two main energies here on this planet: Love & Fear.

Love can be described as light. Fear can be described as darkness.

Darkness is non-existent in the presence of light. Fear is non-existent in the presence of LOVE.

Love exists in the PRESENT MOMENT OF NOW. Fear exists in the future.

When you live in the present moment of now, you will not experience the power of fear. Your mind must be focused upon a future expectation. The word “future” is a big clue that it isn’t something in the now.

Fear is just a shadow. It seems big and scary, but in reality it is only a shadow, created by the light. Fear is another form of light, the other side of light. It is also love. Fears help us experience greater amounts of love…we only have to face them, bring them into the light in order to see them for what they are. Thank them for bringing this love to you, then they lose all of their power. You can then release them if they are no longer necessary in your life.

I have a series of videos you can watch on this subject. Visit JimmyTV- The Art of Letting Go.

In another post, I will map out my vision of “What God is to me…” I think it is rather interesting. I even think that someone who calls him/herself an atheist might be able to accept this explanation of this thing that is the composition of ALL THINGS.

Until then, thanks for reading!

peace.

love, Jimmy

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