My Great Awakening!

Hello my name is Jimmy Belasco. This section gives details about my spiritual journey. I detail the events that lead me to realize my purpose in life is to inspire people to re-connect with their love and their peace.

WARNING: This section is NOT for the spiritually closed minded.

I came to this “knowing” on October 17, 1997 during an experience I call “My Great Awakening!” (I go into the details below) I call it that because it was as if prior to this experience I was in a coma – and after it, my eyes were wide open! During the events of My Great Awakening I realized that I would someday play the role of the teacher. And because the greatest teachers in my life taught me from the experiences of their own lives – I knew I wanted to teach from experiential knowledge – from my own life’s experiences. It was then that I acknowledged the fact that I must first accept my role as the student.

Little did I know at the time that I had just enrolled myself into an advanced level program at The University of Kick the Living @#%& Out of You and See if You Can Get Back Up. Apparently, they had a campus right here in Dallas Texas – and I had signed up to receive a PhD!

Though I have had some great successes in my life, I have also had some, lets say, GREAT NON-SUCCESSES. I have lost everything – several times. I watched 3 of my businesses (my babies, as I used to refer to them), some of which were very successful, and a 14.5 year relationship (among other things) get washed away in the storms of my life. Because of what I had learned up to those points in my life, I did NOT experience the panic, the devastation nor the suffering that usually accompany such life events. I spell all of this out in the section: THE ART OF LOSING EVERYTHING.

It is from my greatest loses – that I received my greatest gains. Isn’t it funny how that works? And it is during these great times of loss that I was the student and I acquired the knowledge I would need some day to be the teacher.

When the student is ready, the teacher appears. When the teacher is ready, the student appears.

My intent and desire is that there is something I learned upon my journey that might help someone or a bunch of someones upon their journeys.

If you have a weak stomach for matters of a spiritual nature, I would suggest that you skip this next part. If this is the case, there is so much you can learn from other aspects of my teachings, maybe you should start with: The Art of Losing Everything or watch some of my videos on JimmyTV.

peace… love, jimmy

My GREAT AWAKENING!

I grew up as a preacher’s kid. The church where my dad preached was so conservative, we thought the Baptists were LIBERALS! I have often described our church to others as this: “Head on down to the Southern Baptists and hang a HARD RIGHT…. and you’re ALMOST THERE!” And even though my dad wasn’t very narrow minded spiritually, I was surrounded by people in the church who were.

I cannot say that I ever had a true, moving spiritual moment in my life up to the date of October 17, 1997. In fact, in the years leading up to that date I was feeling as disconnected and as far away from anything spiritual as possible.

I had always believed that there was a GOD. I had seen the beauty in life and knew there had to be some kind of mastermind behind all of this. Though the GOD that was taught to me in Sunday School, just didn’t seem to resound within me. I often heard responses to my questions from my teachers, “God doesn’t work that way.” or “God wouldn’t do that!” or “God would never let that happen.” And I never understood why we had to go to church to be with God. Or why we had to have the church to find God. I even remember a “wise old elder” in the church say, “We are separate from God…and if we work real hard, God may accept us into HIS fold.” I remember being told several times what God was NOT or wouldn’t do.

But, but…what about the part where God says, “I am ALL THINGS” and “ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE” and the whole, “ALPHA and OMEGA – BEGINNING and THE END” part? I remember my little mind being perplexed.

It seemed to me that there was a whole lot that God was supposedly NOT able to do – according to my Sunday School teachers. Because there was such a disconnect with how I envisioned God and what my church was telling me, I think I became numb to it all. I saw no spirit, I saw no joy in going to church at a very young age. Though I played the part and participated up through most of my college years… and a few beyond. By my mid twenties, I lost all interest in going to church.

At 33 years old, I found myself completely lost. I still had a belief in the concept of a Supreme Intelligence, a Master Creator of ALL THINGS, but I had no connection to this, whatever it was, God-thing…other than I was still alive and breathing, so I must be connected in some basic way with it’s energy.

One afternoon, I am guessing the timing on this was somewhere around September of 1997, in a voice filled with frustration, I said out loud, “OK, God, or whatever you are, I want a connection!” I had heard of people having some kind of connection, having experiences that connected them with this “ALL THERE IS” thing that most people call God…but what about me? “I am ready for MY CONNECTION!” I proclaimed!

Several weeks passed by, in fact I had completely forgotten about my proclamation, life was my usual disconnected life. I had made an appointment for a massage with Jason, the husband of one of my dearest friends. My appointment was set for Friday afternoon,  October 17.

When I showed up for my appointment, I told him that I didn’t like to talk during the massage and that I was going to try and meditate. The true story was that I had body issues since I was in my late teens and I felt a bit awkward being naked-ish in front of a good friend. And the funny part is that I had never meditated before in my life up to that point. I simply wanted to be left alone so I could focus upon my body and the massage and not have to suffer through “small talk”.

So when he left the room, I stripped down and got comfortable on the table with the blanket over me.  I started to focus upon the word, ONE. I had read somewhere that if you focus upon a word and focus upon your breath, it will help you meditate. So I took a few deep long breaths and kept repeating, with the voice in my head, one, one, one, one, one… It seemed like quite some time before he entered, so I was quite relaxed by then. I heard him preparing, though my focus was deep within my body. Boy, this stuff works! [From this point on in the story, my thoughts will be italicized. ]

one…one…one…one…one…one…one…

Deeper and deeper I went, though I was still conscious. When his hands finally touched my shoulders, I felt a shift in the energy – something was different. and I noticed the voice in my head was no longer saying, one, instead it was saying, TRUST…TRUST…TRUST…

Each movement of his hands were in rhythm with this new word that began repeating in my head, TRUST…TRUST…TRUST… 

But wait a minute, he is not saying that and I am not saying that…and the voice is still my voice in my head…but WHO is controlling that thought?

I almost lost my focus, thought the words were calming me and I felt warm and safe. The voice that is inside my head, the voice that talks to myself was talking to me, though I was NOT controlling the words!

LET GO…TRUST…EXPERIENCE…

(if you haven’t noticed by now, the words that are italicized and in CAPS are the words that were coming to me, not of my control…and the lower case italicized are MY thoughts)

holy crap! what is going on here! I am not sure I believe in this stuff…

TRUST… LET GO…EXPERIENCE…

So, I did! I am not sure what was going on with me, though I felt safe and I had this “knowing” that I was supposed to trust what was happening, let go and experience it. I then completely let go with full trust.

When I was ready, and it all seemed to be synchronized, Jason moved to my chest. All of a sudden he hit a spot and in my mind’s eye I saw bluish white light and began to hear the words, HEAL…HEAL…HEAL…

Now, here is where it gets good and might seem a bit unbelievable to some of you.  And trust me, it seemed a bit unbelievable to me too – it was hard to wrap my brain around what was happening – but it was happening to me, so I could not deny it!

As Jason hit a particular spot on my chest, I was off the table and thrust into a place that seemed to go on horizontally in all directions. There was a definite floor and ceiling wherever I was. I was not my body though…I was like a cloud version of me, like a fluffy ball of energy. In front of me was a huge scary fear. This was a fear I was holding in that particular place in my chest; for some reason I seemed to know this. This fear was BIG and I felt like running away – and almost did!

EXPERIENCE…MOVE TOWARD THE FEAR…TRUST…

I took a deep breath and moved toward the fear. Let me add a side note here. At the time I could tell you what the fear was; this is something like a dream in the fact that I could not remember exactly what the fear was shortly after the experience, though it was HUMONGOUS! I am pretty sure I figured out that this first fear was THE FEAR OF DEATH. Anyway, back to the story.

I took a deep breath and began to move toward this big scary fear… and when my energy began to enter into this fear, I was able to see inside of it, see if for what it was, which was nothing. Then all of a sudden this GARGANTUAN FEAR evaporated in front of my cloud eyes, it was like a mist that just went away!

And before I knew what was happening, I was pulled upward out of that horizontal plane and into an upwardly spinning spiral of pure love! It felt as if I were in a tornado, though the feeling was complete JOY and HAPPINESS and SAFENESS and LOVE – a form of SPIRITUAL ECSTASY!

Here is the crazy part, at the open end of this spiral was PURE WHITE LIGHT! It was if I were getting to glance into “The OTHER SIDE”! I was in complete AWE! I was getting to see into the OTHER SIDE! And I instinctively knew that it wasn’t my time to go there yet, but I KNEW someday I would, so all was good. I was given the opportunity to look into that beautiful bright white light… and feel the love! I was sobbing tears of happiness!!!

And…BOOM! I was back on the massage table, back in my body with tears rolling down my face and nearly out of breath from breathing so hard!

oh my gosh! what the heck just happened?! and before I could ask too many questions…

TRUST… LET GO… EXPERIENCE…

And Jason kept moving to the next section in my chest. I see the flash of bluish white light, hear the word HEAL, as I am whisked away to that horizontal plane staring down another one of my big ugly fears. This time, though, I know the drill and I know the PAY OFF! I quickly moved my cloud into that fear, and just as it began to mingle with my energy I could see it for what it was and POOF, it was GONE! WHOOSH, I was sucked up into the vortex of love and reveled in the energy once again!

I will do whatever it takes to feel this energy again!

BOOM! Back on the table. This scenario happened several more times as Jason moved around to different parts of my body in which I was holding fears. I do remember that the intensity of the joyous part was always far greater than the size of the fear, though the greater the fear was, the greater the joy was when the fear was finally released.

The amazing thing to me is that Jason’s movement, the music playing in the background, the involuntary sayings and the experiences were all synchronized and melodic like a beautiful orchestra. Was Jason aware of what was going on? What did he think of me crying and sobbing on his massage table? I don’t know and didn’t care! This was the most moving experience of my life!!!

When we were done, I asked him if he knew what was happening to me or if he know that he was orchestrating this symphony within me…and he didn’t. He said he has seen some odd things happen during massages and he just continues on and lets the person experience or release what they need. He then asked me what it was that I experienced. I told him that I would sit down with him later, but “…for some reason, I need to leave now.”

I felt as if I was still in a cloud of energy, as if I was being guided. I got into my car and quickly realized that my driving was somewhat involuntary, just like my inner voice was…I was being guided to drive somewhere. So, I held onto the wheel and became a silent observer. I watched as I drove this way, then turned here, almost like my body was on auto pilot – I was even observing the speed limit, which rarely happened. Before I realized it, I was driving down a street and pulled directly into a head-in parking spot in front of a book store.

I need to go in there.

I got out of my car and as I touched the handle of the book store door…

oh, there is a book in here and I will know it when I see it.

At this point, I was very interested in where this journey was leading me…and I had stopped asking questions a while back. Amazed? Yes. Remember from my upbringing, we DEFINITELY did NOT believe is THIS SORT OF THING! But I could not deny, this was HAPPENING TO ME!

I walked through the store as if I knew exactly where I was going. Through the isles of book shelves I walked. I ended up in front of a book shelf.

Ah, the book is on this shelf…and I will know it when I see it.

At that point, I remember my logical brain taking over. I took my eyes to the top shelf and started at the left and moved to the right.

not on that shelf.

I then dropped my vision down to the second from top shelf and scanned it from left to right.

not on that shelf.

Then I dropped down to the third from top shelf and there right directly in front of me was a book that seemed to be glowing. Yes folks, glowing! Again, I stopped asking questions.

Let me preface this next part by saying that I had never heard of this book prior to seeing it that day on the shelf.

I leaned over and picked up the very last copy of the glowing book and read the title. Conversations With God – An uncommon dialog. Book 1. As I turned over the book, it was written as God talking, in first person, just like in the Bible. The voice in my head, the one that still sounded like my usual voice in my head, began to speak the words as if that voice had written them. My eyes flooded with tears, I could barely make my way through the inscription.

As I turned to head to the register, one of the bookstore staff members saw the book in my hand and said, “Oh, you’re gonna like that book!”

Oh, you have NO IDEA! 

I sat at a coffee shop across the street and began reading the book, feverishly! I had a pen and began to underline and circle all of the important parts, until I realized that I had marked every sentence for several pages…then I gave up the pen. This book was basically covering everything I had just LEARNED and EXPERIENCED on that massage table! It talked about FEAR and LOVE… then it went on to explain a version of God that I had always hoped in my heart was how God was. My heart leaped with JOY! The funny part is that it didn’t negate anything I believed from my church days, it only expanded upon those ideas. It took the limits off of GOD and what GOD is. In my upbringing, it seemed that GOD had to fit in this box, and if you didn’t believe in the box – you were wrong.

This book opened me up and expanded my life in so many ways! And I am not sure that I would have ever read this book if I hadn’t found it in the manner in which I found it. And even if I would have been given this book and read it, without this awakening experience, I would have never read it with as much an open mind as I had.

This is how I, as a child, had always envisioned God…until I was told differently. As I grew, this is basically how I wished God would be, how God would work, how this universe works. This book basically helped me know that I wasn’t crazy all of those years when I questioned what I was being taught. It all made sense…again!

I will go ahead and tell you this last part of the Great Awakening Experience, you probably already think I am crazy, I might as well put some frosting on the top!

That first evening when I was sitting down with a notepad and reading the book, I came across the word REINCARNATION. 

Hold up! Stop! I don’t believe in reincarnat… and I stopped myself in mid thought. I stopped my auto-response. I said to myself, LET GO… TRUST…

As soon as I began to think those words, it was if a bolt of electricity came through the top of my head and went through my body. In my mind I was seeing floor after floor filled with books, books of knowledge, being downloaded (for the lack of a better word) one after the other into my body. I was grasping bits of knowledge and my brain was trying hold onto it.

LET IT GO…TRUST…IT IS ALWAYS WITH YOU…

And so I did, I completely let go and allowed this to happen. It seemed to last minutes. Hundreds of floors, filled with thousands and thousands of books, each being given to me. If one of my roommates at the time would have walked in on me, I am sure it would have looked like I was having a seizure or a stroke.

As soon as it was over, I instantly KNEW that reincarnation was a truth. It made perfect sense to me. We are energy and energy never dies, it only takes on new forms. The energy that is me, existed before I was born into this world and will exist when I leave. Why wouldn’t we have more than one life to work through things. Think of how sad it would be if your only shot at life had been a child who died at birth, or as a toddler or a teenager. Why couldn’t we have multiple lives to work through all that we can work through. Our Western culture is one of the few that don’t believe in reincarnation. Reincarnation makes perfect sense to me. Why would we put limits upon that which is ALL THINGS. Why would we say that certain things are NOT POSSIBLE?

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

THE ALPHA, THE OMEGA, THE BEGINNING, THE END.

One of the greatest lessons I have taken from this experience is the releasing of fears. Facing your fears, seeing them truly for what they are (which is basically a false expectation of an event that hasn’t come true yet) and letting them go to experience the love and joy that was being held within that fear…

This is why I speak so much about Letting Go… Our fears are here to teach us greater parts of ourselves…and that greater part of yourself is LOVE.

There are two main energies here on this planet: Love & Fear.

Love can be described as light. Fear can be described as darkness.

Darkness is non-existent in the presence of light. Fear is non-existent in the presence of LOVE.

Love exists in the PRESENT MOMENT OF NOW. Fear exists in the future.

When you live in the present moment of now, you will not experience the power of fear. Your mind must be focused upon a future expectation. The word “future” is a big clue that it isn’t something in the now.

Fear is just a shadow. It seems big and scary, but in reality it is only a shadow, created by the light. Fear is another form of light, the other side of light. It is also love. Fears help us experience greater amounts of love…we only have to face them, bring them into the light in order to see them for what they are. Thank them for bringing this love to you, then they lose all of their power. You can then release them if they are no longer necessary in your life.

I have a series of videos you can watch on this subject. Visit JimmyTV- The Art of Letting Go.

In another post, I will map out my vision of “What God is to me…” I think it is rather interesting. I even think that someone who calls him/herself an atheist might be able to accept this explanation of this thing that is the composition of ALL THINGS.

Until then, thanks for reading!

peace.

love, Jimmy

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2 responses to “My Great Awakening!

  1. Tiffany Griffin

    Amazing, Jimmy!! I recall you sharing this beautiful story on one of our “meeting of the minds” at Buzz Brews. 🙂 SO grateful for you, then, now, always…!!!

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